Gardening in the Time of Corona (A Poem)

I started gardening last week – Planted seeds in a pot, Smelled the sweet earthiness. Saw a butterfly, And dreamed of hedgehogs. Nothing happened. Though I watered them (Not too much, nor too little) And stared, And heard a bee bumble by. Did the laundry, And dreamed of forgotten things. Nothing happened. I am still […]

Thinking about Planners (A Brief Review)

I need to be organised. Not just in a “oh so many things to do” kind of way but in a “keeping track of everything makes me anxious” kind of way. And since I have a ton of other things that can cause anxiety, anything I can do to reduce the load is good. It’s […]

Ice cream, and Adulting

I’m eating ice cream. Ben&Jerry’s Cookie Dough to be exact. It is my childhood bliss in a pot. Not because we had cookie dough ice cream but because ice cream was for summer days and special treats and when my mum baked she always let us scrape the bowl and eat it. Somehow that was […]

Not The Thing

I used to think that I had to find The Thing and then I would be Happy. You know the Thing? That something that somehow if I worked out what it was and did it, everything would make sense. Everything would be worthwhile. The obstacles would be as nothing. I just needed to look around […]

I’m not done yet

There are so many failures littering these past few years, if that’s the way I look at it. I have wasted a perfectly good brain and excellent grades in university by not finding a PhD. Instead I am the carer for my ASD diagnosed Little Person.  I have not mastered the art of housework. Instead […]

Anxiety And The Petrol Tank

Over recent months, I have had to take stronger steps to manage my anxiety. It’s gone from an issue other people struggle with, to a lion circling the perimeter of my life. Or maybe an elephant. That every now and then decides to sit on my chest. “Not today Mr Elephant.” (It always helps to […]

The Thing With Challenges

Of course it’s probably part of the January-itis. The challenges that people put up and ask you to sign up for. Dry January is one (no problems there). But there’s the penny challenge  (save 1p the first day, 2p the next etc), the 52 books in a year, the 12 types of books (there’s a […]