Ah, self care. So trendy. Bubble baths and spa days and chocolate chip cookies (homemade… by someone else) and making lists. Self care is not a one off event that you schedule in your diary every few months just before you hit burnout. Especially if you are the kind of person that only realises you […]
#Kale – Metaphors Keep discrediting the metaphors: Annihilated “Journey”, Liquidated “Battle”, Excused “Chapter”. * I write #kale poems for my friend @drbexl as she lives with the challenges of a secondary breast cancer diagnosis (#livingwithmets), but this one is sort of for both of us. Because while her challenges are not my challenges, and my […]
The other day, Little Person was explaining to me how she was going to be able to create her own characters on one of her games. The first one would be based on me. The only problem was that each character could only have one expression. “Yours will have to be grumpy, Mummy.” I could […]
I’m sitting at the top of the stairs, ignoring the smell of dust. My cat can’t decide whether to sit with me or not. I can hear the dog whining downstairs, and Little Person muttering and clattering her toys. I’m here because last week she got stuck in her climbing frame and nobody could hear […]
I found this poem in a notebook I recently started using again – it’s dated September 2017, and the description is probably more true now than it ever was. Little Limpet Little Limpet, I know you love me. Squeezed up next to me so I feel every breath, Hear every tummy gurgle, Know without knowing […]
*So far (** I should add, this post refers to a child with more “hidden” difficulties – she has no obvious medical needs or learning difficulties, nor a flashing light above her head to say she needs help. I know the struggle is very real for parents with children with more obvious needs, but I […]
There are so many failures littering these past few years, if that’s the way I look at it. I have wasted a perfectly good brain and excellent grades in university by not finding a PhD. Instead I am the carer for my ASD diagnosed Little Person. I have not mastered the art of housework. Instead […]
It’s light up your world blue or red (depending which side of the debate you stand) day (okay maybe it was yesterday but see below) but I am not lighting anything. I am sitting here wondering about it all. Reliving the moments that make the autism real. Truth is I am tired. I am tired […]
When I was in high school, or maybe just after, I used to watch a show called “Can’t Cook, Won’t Cook”. Ainsley Harriot running around talking to people while they chopped and salted and 15 minutes later there was a thoroughly edible something on the plate. Back then, I liked cooking as a spectator sport. I […]
At the beginning of the year, I decided that this would be the year of gratitude. Or at least, learning about gratitude. That didn’t turn out too well, and a little while ago, I decided to ditch the whole thing. Except somehow, trying for gratitude has sort of seeped in. So here’s some things my […]
